Heartaches

Many years ago while i was still a student doing my Industrial Attachment as a social worker in a Voluntary Welfare Organisation (VWO), I once said I would leave the social service sector straight away if ever my heart turns cold or indifferent towards the clients.

Many times, God in His gentle manner reminded me of this committment. When a social worker friend visited me in Cambodia after I was there for a year and a half, I poured out my heart, sharing that my heart was cold and I needed a rest desperately. I confidently said I would not return to a social service agency for at least the next few years.

Rested I did.
Returned to a VWO I did.

Today, a colleague reminded me,"Siew Lee, you need to learn to let go and take things easy.You must not pent up your emotions. You must ventilate out, else you will become crazy."

A week ago, I received yet another heartbreaking disappointment.

Sad I was.
Confused I was.
Disappointed I was.

Yet, I am thankful. Yes Lord, it shows I am only human. Yes Lord, it shows i am only but Your servant, placed in where You desire.