Forgiveness

'Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother, then come and offer your gift' - Matthew 5:23-24

This is a familiar verse to me and i simply brushed it aside when i read it last week during one of my Quiet Moments with God.

'Lord, i am not angry with anyone. There isnt anyone that i need to reconcile with. I couldnt think of anyone who would be angry with me too.'

I was wrong.

God in His loving discipline had to be reveal this to me in the most unexpected manner. I was forced to come face to face with the issue, seemingly buried deep within me. It has been almost 10 years. i had grown. But I still couldnt comprehend. I refused to love freely. I was cautious.i held to my rights to feel hurt.I refused to forgive. Time numbed the pain, but it didnt heal. I know i had to make a choice.

Lord, would you please help me. Help me to forgive them, help me to forgive myself. Help me to surrender my rights to anger, my rights to hurts and my rights to pains. Help me Lord, to love as you love me. Help me Lord to serve, as you called me.