For you ......my best friend

HAd a long and productive day today ......physically very tired, but mind still very active. I know i need to rest. I know my body is collapsing with the 5 - 6 hours of sleep daily. However, sometimes, sleep is such a dreadful and fearful thing. Not that i am not enjoying my work, its just that everytime i sleep, time passes so quickly, and the next day begins. A new day of activities and work.

Today, my mind ran wild. I thought of my past......my secondary school days. I find it heartwarming that different songs reminds me of different periods of my life......songs that reminds me of the someone, songs that reminds of an event, songs that reminds me of my tears and hurts, songs that reminds me of my joys.

Today, i remembered this song.i remembered my best friend. She once told me that this song always brings tears to her eyes. I couldnt exactly remember in what context she made that statement, but i remembered her and i love her dearly still. This is for you......i remembered you today and i still love you very much. Thank you for being my best friend, for the wonderful times we shared, for the tears we shed. Glad we are still in contact.

You are my first and perhaps last best friend i will ever have. I never dared to have another best friend after our secondary school days.

Today i asked God for an ice cream

Todays marks the start of a hectic 2 weeks ahead as we prepare for the commencement of the workshops next week, the briefings for teachers and parents and the kick start of the prevocational program for the students in term 2. It was a long and tiring day and i dozed off in the long train ride home in the hot afternoon ....... As my train draws into Yishun mrt station, i uttered specifically and simply,"God, i want an ice cream, those kind on a motor bike outside the mrt station".

As far as i can rememeber, i did not see the ice cream man there for sometime. NEver had i ever bought ice cream from the ice cream man parked outside the mrt station. It struck me as strange and weird that i would even utter such a request. Lo and behold! As i walked out of the station, i saw the familiar ice cream man's umbrella on his motorbike! My sudden request puzzled me. I had NEVER made such request before. His providence amazes me......my LOrd hears even my small prayer.

Today, i asked God for an ice cream and He gave it to me.

Thank You Father, for reminding me once again of your great, steadfast and unfailing love to me. Thank you for even using this small gesture to show me, remind me and assure me of your presence. Thank you for hearing my each and every thought and prayers. Thank You Father, for using this manner to cheer me on in this journey. Thank you Lord ;o)

I bought a marvellous 60cents chocolate ice cream ;o)

Dao Cao Ren

Today i realised i had grown ......grown stronger. Perhaps i dont want to feel, perhaps i choose not to feel, perhaps i really dont feel or perhaps i am in denial ......, but in all, i learnt to keep myself in check. I learnt to deny the upheaval deep within, and moved on with a smile. I had grown. I dont cry anymore. I learnt not to. I dont talk about things anymore. I learnt not to. I dont ventilate out anymore. I must learn not to.

Today i realised that i had grown.

In Christ ALONE

Dear Father,
TEach me to turn to You in each and every circumstance. TEach me to glaze upon You and seek You in my each and every step. Guide me and lead me Lord.....for only in You i want to place my trust.Father,i place my steps ahead into Your mighty and loving Hands. I know You only have the very best for me.
Thank You Father for loving me, for listening to me.

your child,
xiuli

Worthy is the Lamb

Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb



Dear JEsus,
Thank you for the cross. I am sorry.Forgive me.
Your child,
xiuli

THERE CAN BE MIRACLES IF YOU BELIEVE

When You Believe

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
Now you will
You will when you believe

You will when you believe
Just believe
Gotta believe
You will when you believe

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It has been a week of joys and disappointments, ups and downs.THere were times when i brimmed with pride as i watch the students performing so confidently and joyfully in their jobs; times when i shed tears and shared the disappointment when they did not pass the on-job-evaluation to qualify for the position. THere were times when i truly believed they can do it; times when i doubted and tough decisions have to be made.

Thank you Father, for granting us wisdom and strength. EVen when things did not go as we anticipated, we rest in deep assurance that You are still in control.
Father, i pray that as we continue to journey on with your children, grant us the patience and love to continue to encourage them, to be their greatest cheer leaders in their lives.
EVen when disappointments set in, Father, i pray that with You by our sides, we will journey on courageously, joyfully, and steadfastly with them.
Even when they give up on themselves, when no body believed that they can do it, Father, i pray that You will grant us the boldness to believe otherwise
Father, when the road ahead is dark and bumpy, i pray that You will continue to uplift us,to teach us to celebrate and rejoice even with the smallest step forward.
Father, we believe You are the LOrd of Miracles .....indeed there can be miracles in the lives of these children, if only we believe. Thank you for hearing our prayers. In JEsus' name we pray, amen.