I want to be a candy man

Enjoy the song ;o)


Everyone has been asking me what I am doing now. Somehow, the word ‘unemployed’ seems a taboo. I went to the East Coast Park with my family last Saturday and saw the cotton candy man selling candy floss. A funny and cheeky thought came to me – I want to sell cotton candy ;o)

Allow me to indulge in my fantasy for the moment ( while I still can ;P)…… I want to be a Candy man.


hmm, or perhaps this kind of candy shops?

Pray and believe and it shall be done

But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all he does.
James 1: 6-8

30th May 2007, night

Ask and you will receive. I am ashamed and guilty that I often asked with little confidence and true conviction that I will receive. But God is good. He had never disappointed me. Nevertheless, the lesson of ‘Praying with faith’ is one that I must learn.

All the children, the staffs in the orphanage, the congregation in Prey Veng Christian Centre (PVCC) and the Methodist church (Prey Veng), my brothers and sisters from Emmaus EFC, Bedok Methodist church and many who care were all praying for me – for my haemoglobin to rise to a surgery safety level i.e from 8.2g/dL to 12g/dL and above.


“We are all praying for you”
“It’s not possible. It would be a miracle if it happens.”
“Siewlee, we are all praying for you, believing that Jesus loves you and He will cause your haemoglobin to rise. We are praying and believing that it will happen. How could you not believe and doubt what God can do for you?”

I was ashamed. I had actually doubted what my loving and mighty God would and could do for me.

“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. “I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him.” Mark 11:23

Then on, I prayed with my whole heart, really believing that my Lord will perform the miracle. He did.


My prayer life changed. I used to pray with words, now I learned to pray with my heart.

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer – Matthew 21: 22

" Sister, sister ......"

"Sister, sister ......" - how once these words meant attention, problems, giving and energy. That day, these words meant fragrant offerings and love.

“Sister, sister” - these words still ring loudly in my mind. How I wish I could still hear them once again.

25th May – 1st June 2007

Despite the anaemia label hanging over me then, I was granted the privilege of returning to Prey Veng Province, Cambodia – my home for the last 2 years. I am grateful for my parents’ permission to return and to my brothers and sisters in Christ for your prayers and blessings. I also appreciate the thoughts and intentions of some of you who wanted to accompany me back on this trip. I know many of you were worried and I really appreciate all your intercessions. Thank you very much.

When the vehicle turned into the orphanage, I was overwhelmed with the reception and greetings from the children and the staff.

“ Sister, how are you?”
“ Sister, you gave me your blood last year, now I am well, I can give my blood to you”
“ Sister, how much blood do you need? I can give mine to you.”
“ Sister, we were so worried and we miss you very much.”
“Sister, please don’t leave us.”
“ Sister, we have been praying for you three times a day.”
“ Sister, are you still in pain?”
“ Sister, when is your operation?”
“Sister, what did the doctor said?”
“Sister, are you ok?”
……….

I was deeply touched by their love and generosity. Father, I thank you for them, for each of their prayers, for their love, for their hearts. I thank you for the numerous lessons they had taught me.

Father, I pray that you would also teach me to do the same – to forgive, to love, to give and to intercede.

Father, I pray that you will continue to shower your abundant blessings upon each and everyone in the orphanage, you will continue to guide them in Your way and you will keep the evil one far away.

Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
Ephesians 5: 1 – 2

My Physician, My Healer, My Lord

But for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.

Psalm 73: 28

7th May 2007

That night, I was in bed, deeply burdened by the numerous on-goings in the orphanage in the past week. As usual, I said my bedtime prayers.

However, something was different that night. My CD player was on with some gospel tracks and my standing reading lamp was turned on beside my bed. I was certain I was awake. It was an overflowing sense of comfort and warmth I felt then. I knew I wasn’t alone. He was with me.

I sense a vision of a doctor bending over me on my left, examining me.

I had been having prolonged menstruation since December 2006. The inconvenience and discomfort had silently integrated into my daily life.

“Lord, is there something really physically wrong with me?” I asked.

I had never liked to consult the doctors even in Singapore due to the high charges. In fact, I had never seen a doctor during my 2 years in Cambodia. I always believe in mind over body and self medication.

It was not a rebuke that night, commanding me to see a doctor. It was simply a gentle nudge urging me that something needs to be done. I was troubled. “Father, are you calling me back to Singapore for a check up?”

I made the eccentric decision to return to Singapore for a check up. And that was the start of another journey with Him on 11th May 2007.

Through this encounter with Him, I can’t help but am amazed at my God – at how He preserved me and how He led me back.

We are often asked who Jesus is to us - Our Saviour, our Lord, our King, our Strength, our Shepherd, our Comforter …….

That night, Jesus was my Physician, who cautioned and convinced me that I needed to seek medical help. His favour must have been upon me.

Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare. – Psalm 40: 5

Thank you Jesus, Thank you my Lord.

This Little Light of Mine

This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine. (3x)
Let it shine.(3x)

Hide it under a bushel?
No! I'm gonna let it shine. (3x)
Let it shine. (3x)

Won't let Satan blow it out,
I'm gonna let it shine. (3x)
Let it shine. (3x)

Let it shine till Jesus comes,
I'm gonna let it shine. (3x)
Let it shine. (3x)