By day the LORD went ahead of me in a pillar of cloud to guide me on my way ...... Exodus 13: 21

8th May 2007, morning

“I am booking a ticket and returning back to Singapore to see a doctor” I declared suddenly. I will be taking the first flight out on 10th May.

“i will most likely be back in a weeks time”. I assured the staff and children. I did not even bring my laptop nor any of my soft toys along. I was confident that i will be fine and i will be back.

9th May 2007, afternoon

“What time is your flight? I will pick you up.”, Big sister

“I can get the doctor to write a meno for subsidy and arrange for an appointment for you.”, Second sister.

10th May 2007, morning devotion with the staff, 7.30am

Mark 5: 21 – 43

He said to her, “ Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.” Mark 5:34

My staff prayed for me.

10th May 2007, morning, 8.56am

“Hi Praise God! Dr Kek made a very special concession for you. This slot is especially created for you. You must be at Mount Elizabeth by 8am sharp on the 11th, Friday.”, sister – in – Christ.

Dr Kek is a Christian gynecologist, one of the best in the circle.

10th May, 2007, afternoon at a friend's place, 3.47pm, Phnom Penh

“My Lord, what is happening to me? i am tired. Really tired. Grant me rest.”, I pleaded with tears streaming down. Alone in the living room.

“You can sleep in my room if you want......” , sister – in- Christ.

10th May 2007, night at Pochentong international airport. 8.00pm

“Hey,you are returning home too?” I bumped into a missionary who had been serving in Cambodia for 10 years.

“ I am returning to see a doctor.......”

“I had numerous fibroid growth. I went for the first surgery to remove them, but ultimately, the doctor removed my whole uterus the second time as he said the chances of it recurring is very high.....yes, it is an open surgery to remove the fibroids.”

“ Father, let it not be fibroids.”, i brushed it aside. It could not happen to me. I am still so young. It is just some hormonal imbalance.

11th May 2007, morning at the clinic, Mount Elizabeth Hospital

“I see a very big uterus. I see a very large fibroid growth. It is pressing down on your bladder. You will need to go for a surgery as soon as possible to remove it.”, doctor.

Blank.

I did not know how i made it home alone that day.

11th May 2007, afternoon, home

“You are very anemic. Your hemoglobin level is only at 8.2g. The normal is at least 12 - 13g. You need to bring it up to at least 10 or 11g before we can do the surgery. You need to take a double dosage
of the iron tablets.Your heart is already compensating. You must not exert yourself.”, doctor called to inform.

Shocked.

I was very very tired. But i just could not sleep that afternoon.

Prayed.

See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared – Exodus 23:20
As i recount my hours and days, indeed my Lord had sent numerous angels ahead of me.

Father, grant me courage to journey along with You during this season.

Peace.



Do not be afraid my child, I will be with you in each and every step.

God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will i forsake you.” (Heb 13: 5)